Something hit me yesterday. I was giving my youngest son a bath. He was overcome with wild laughter because I filled the tub with a few inches water and tons of bubbles. He was a pig in mud. My stream of consciousness took over as he let loose. What will my life look like exactly one year from today? December 19, 2019.
On December 19, 2017, I was living in Staten Island, NY. I had a 2.5 year old and a four month old. Three dogs, and of those, Benny had just regressed to a new level in his movement abilities, and Sasha had just completed radiation on her nasal tumor. I was preparing for my family to fly in from Texas. Companies, Ounce Water and Go Get It LIFE, were moving and grooving, and husband had just wrapped filming the second season on his current TV show. We were in a groove.
Little did I know that just a few months later we would be moving to Austin, Texas. Kids would be older. Dogs would be older. Husband would be flying all over the country filming multiple movies, and meeting fans at Comic Cons.
I remember what got me to this point in my bathtime stream of consciousness. I was making a mental note to pack away two crafts that the boys didn’t use this year, and in hindsight would be better used next year when they’re a year older. That’s when it hit me. What would they be like at 4.5 and 2.5 years old? What will my life look like when I unpacked those unused Christmas crafts?
We have a phenomenal at-home veterinarian. She not only provides the dogs with traditional veterinarian care, but also advanced care options such as acupuncture, chiropractic adjustments and laser therapy. She’s gotten to know the dogs very well in the past 9 months. We now see her every two weeks, and had a very real conversation yesterday regarding Benny & Sasha. We realize that we are beyond borrowed time on both, and we most likely have a few months together.
That put me in a headspace. How different the holidays will be next year…
So, as reflective as I can be, I decided to not loose this moment. I want to savor every ounce of how I was feeling.
Once the hubs and I got the kiddos down to sleep, I sat down and wrote a calendar entry for one year from the day– December 19, 2019. In it, I wrote all the things I wanted to share about my day, and just that day. What I did, who I saw, and anything important I wanted to note.
In one year, as I’m settling in for Christmas, I will get the reminder and, oh boy, can only imagine what life will look like then.
My intention to share this today is to offer up an idea for those who like to reflect, and get an honest comparison from year to year. How easy we forget the mundane tasks of the day, the passing feelings, and the space in between Instagrammable moments.